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DownFall to Uprise.

Thu Sep 24, 2009, 7:21 AM
  • Mood: Compassion
  • Listening to: Stripped.
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: key board
  • Playing: ACWW.
  • Eating: pizza
  • Drinking: soda.
This Summer Was The worst of All......Ive never had one so bad. Ive never bled so hard...An i Never cryed so much. I lost 50% of all my friends...I lost someone I thought I had a Chance! with. An found out diffirently the first day my summer began.

My Dear Uncle. Jack I'll never forget you...not now not ever...Id always remember how you were always last to show up to all the holliday parties. Now your never gonna show up again. No matter how hard I beg an plead,Never.You left me. And I dident get to say goodbye...an I just saw you not that long ago. I dident get to tell you Thankyou. Or how much you really ment to me. Or sorry That I never said I loved you. Now I never will. Everyone who knows me. Knows Dying is my bigest fear. I still wonder what ran threw your mind...or why you put that gun to your head. The fact your gone....I cant grasp it. That day Me my dad. MomMomAn PopPop an megan..all sat down to look at alll The photo albums. Beginning to end. Howw you an my dad always terrorized Aunt jerie as kids. And how you an my dad were the little punks. An all the pictures when Hurrican Andrew hit..an you were in shortshorts,Disturbing. But it fit you Awkwardly..I Could just imagin you...walking threw the front door saying "Hey I made it,But you always Know im late" But you never did... I love you jack......I wish you knew.
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Besides that depressing Section in my Journal. From the horrible june, To the struggling July. All the wayto the UpRise of August. I seemed to manage.
I had to watch allot of people suffer...make bad decicions....be stupid fuck up. Start over
Cry scream bleed. The works. An I love all their asses just the same as I always did.
My art...Blahh.....Alittle on the slow side.
I wanna get into pictures!!!!!! take more photo's make it last!!! Be a Photographer. Capture my action. BUT MATTY HAS MY CAMERA!! GRRRR.
I wannted to type more of my story (The Beginning) BUT NO! my laptop broke. FUCK so im screwed up the ass once again....
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As I was saying The "UpRise" of August. Well Three Years ago A little hopeless girl sat in her 2nd period class room. Still Feeling lost with the boy whom she thougth she "Loved" in 5th grade. One day her seat got moved Farther away from him. She dident know what was worse. Being Farther away Or not knowing if she really loved him. One day This little girl sat down. With the day feeling the same as it always did. Same place. Same faces. Until We got a new student in our little 2nd period. He sat in the row Rite next to her. The boy was much taller than she was an had short dark hair. He was quiet, So At first she payed no mind.
The little Girl's passion was art. All shes ever known to do or be good at. It runned in in

Family for years....She loked over at the Quiet one. an Saw He Was Drawing. And From what she knew of art. He had talent. She comented That The picture Was Sakura. From naruto. Even Tho that was ovious. An it loooked Great...From that day on. Something Grew eachday. An Once again. She had to hide it. For she was shy. An it was all she could do. Sadly the boy from her 5th grade Stole her away. But The feelings dident die. at all....They got bigger..an stronger..by 7th garde....She knew he was all she wanted.,....the best freind she needed.. an in 8th grade. "I couldent let you go." I Watched you love her. We were all best friends...which made it hadrer. But everyday Somehow. I thought of your picture....

This is the same picture From that day, An it means a lot to me still....Just like it always did. Just like you always did to me....
The day she left you..I hated her. I always told her she was so lucky, She had the best damn thing. An all she did was treat you poorly. Im always here for you. An I tryed my best to comfort you everystep of the way.... [link] This is the same picture. From three years ago.
And August 20th.....Was the day I can never explain how I felt. How much the weeks befor when you said you alaways sorta liked me...an in 7th to 8th...you did love me...I loved you....an always will You mean the world to me. You are my world. My lover.And My best friend. :iconpainkunn::iconlelouchtherebillion4:

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Names Brandi. Call me SYN.
Im 15
Live in miami. (Fuck get me away frm here!!)
I love lots of things.
And like a lot of music.
And The man who owns my heart is :iconpainkunn:

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: my mind,
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: Ex. Small.
  • Print preference: not sure
  • Interests: anime, cello ,videogames,art,
  • Favourite movie: transformers, Eagle Eye, Disturbia (go shia!) twilight seven pounds
  • Favourite band or musician: my chemical romance, linkin park, three days grace
  • Favourite genre of music: rock. metal.screamo techno
  • Favourite artist: I LOVE YOU PEARLEDEN ♥♥♥♥
  • Favourite poet or writer: edgar allen poe
  • Favourite photographer: my cousin and matty (the only one's i know)
  • Favourite style of art: i have many
  • Operating System: apple/mac. but normaly windows
  • MP3 player of choice: I-pod
  • Shell of choice: Conch XD
  • Wallpaper of choice: Wolves,Dark things, Anime.
  • Skin of choice: pale/light white-ish
  • Favourite game: final fantasy 7-13 and devil may cry , soulcalaber 1-3...kingdomhearts1-2....jack1-3 slycooper 1-3
  • Favourite gaming platform: ps2 Xbox360
  • Favourite cartoon character: ALUCARD! lelouch....byakuya...ulquiorra.......itachi Allen,Sesshomaru Zero
  • Personal Quote: i dont quote
  • Tools of the Trade: prisma color markers. sharpies pencil.

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:iconhuntressarria:
Mahalo for the fav :)

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Your silence will not protect you. :pride:
:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
:3

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I think that possibly......Maybe ive Fallen for you.
Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconvaletdepik:
Do you play cello...?
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:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
yes Why?

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I think that possibly......Maybe ive Fallen for you.
Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconvaletdepik:
WHOHOW...!
I wanna listen that...!
Wich kind of music do you play with your cello..?
BEUH.. BABABABABABA BAH...!
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:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
what ever my teacher instructs.
Normally Classical. Bach. Prelude 1 an 5 are my absolute favorites.

But my music taste runs about Rock Screamo Metal MelodicDeath Alternitiverock. Some pop.

I love Classical (cello) and Piano too.
Violins are pretty if played correctly.


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I think that possibly......Maybe ive Fallen for you.
Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconvaletdepik:
I'm with you about the classical in cello... Yah... Tha' great...!
I play a bit piano...! But I'm more on my bass... Yop...Do you know Apocalyptica...? If yes, did you like them...? I like their "tuch" on their cellos...
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:iconan3czka:
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Thanks a lot for the watch!

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:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
:3

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I think that possibly......Maybe ive Fallen for you.
Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconjumpforemos:
Thank you so much for the fav:heart:

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:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
Np love!! it looks realllyy good. love it. a lot

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Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconjumpforemos:
Thank you so much ;^; so sweet~ XD

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:iconwrathxelciy:
ty for the fav lol dont i look sexy?!

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^^ :eager:
:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
yes love.

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Yes, There's a Chance Ive Fallen Quite hard over you.....
:iconwrathxelciy:
:D

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:iconnightrose91:
thnx for watching...^^
:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
Np SasuNaru FAN :heart: (you commnented on allot of SasuNaru things i liked) So i assumed you were plain Awesome.

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:iconnightrose91:
hehe, thanks for that too...^^
well every friend of sasunaru is a friend of mine...x3
:iconlelouchtherebillion4:
Yayyyyy

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